Man, it's been a while since I've done an update on here. Why?
My sister came into town, she needed a major cleansing to her spirit after her friend Monet was murdered so she came out here for over a week. I hadn't seen my sister in over a year and had really hoped to be farther ahead in my progress when she saw me next. I don't know, at times I have unrealisitic goals for my progress, I understand that change doesn't happen overnight but it won't stop me from wishing for it. Anyhow, It was a rather nice visit for the most part but our plans were soaked as it didn't stop raining the entire time she was here. The city was flooded on more than one day and we had to declare a state of emergency.
So, how have I done this whole time?
on the 7/31 weigh-in I lost 0.6 lbs. That was a bummer of a weigh-in as I had really busted my ass that entire week - I ate really healthy that week and really stuck to my exercise routine. I made sure to really stick to the program this week as I knew when my sister arrived, I'd probably give into temptation on more than one occasion and I wanted to cushion any possible weight gain for the following week.
on the 8/07 weigh-in I had gained 3.4 lbs!!! Wait a second, in my defense I happened to have just started my cycle when I weighed in and am always heavier the week of my cycle due to water retention. I do have to admit that I didn't exactly stick to the WW program this week but I didn't go overboard either. I certainly could have made better decisions on my eating habits but don't really regret eating those "bad" foods. The one good thing was that I stuck to my exercise routine the entire time my sister visited, minus two days. Not bad at all!
and on the 8/14 weigh-in I lost 3.4 lbs! FREAKY! So, it's like the slate is clear and nothing happened! I ate really good this past week and have stuck to my exercise routine so I was very happy to see the numbers change on the scale.
While change is slow, I've noticed that I'm getting better at choosing healthier foods to eat and making exercise a priority in my day. That makes me happy because there are times where I felt like at any moment I could totally snap and eat a dozen cupcakes at once. While I can't keep a dozen cupcakes in the house, I can go to a bakery and order just one...on a rare occasion.
In a way it sucks that I have such an unhealthy relationship with food but at the same time I'm building a different relationship with food - one that nourishes me, sustains me.
Little by little I'm finding a better me buried underneath all this crap.