¡Ombligo!

I've been 30 for a month now and things seem to be on the up so far, although I wouldn't mind my body going into turbo speed around now.

I've been having trouble sleeping lately and took a sleeping pill last night - the first one in a long time. Why is I that I always have the strangest dreams when I take sleeping pills? Anyhow, I was able to get a good night's sleep for once and woke up with a ton of energy!

Enough energy to drag my ass to the scale where it showed I lost a whopping 0.8 lbs! The way I've been eating and exercising I should have seen more improvement this week! Well, better to have lost than gained.

This was the message I got when I logged in my weight: If you're feeling a little neutral about your weight-loss result, here's a little fact to make you smile: The rate you`re losing weight at is considered to be very safe and healthy. So you're seeing success! You're doing the right thing.

Remember this anonymous saying this week: "Feel pride in how far you've come and confidence in where you're going."

Bah, I'd have more pride if the numbers on the scale would drop sooner!

Last year I relied heavily on Lean Cuisine meals for lunch and dinner as they are a much easier way to count points than to cook yourself but seeing as how I have less points to work with, I am learning how to overhaul what I eat and stick to healthier, natural cooking options. I've been sticking to mainly fresh produce with beans & legumes, low fat cheeses, egg whites and the occasional poultry and/or shrimp for added protein.

I've been trying to stick with the philosophy of eating within the season which has so far been rather successful but am really craving harvest foods and can't wait for the weather to change.

While I'm doing everything right with my eating habits - save for the occasional splurge, I'd like to see a more radical change so I'm going to try and change up my exercise routine a bit.

SI: Um, this I've not had much success with. I really don't know as I sometimes think that the desire to stop isn't as strong and the ability to do so. What gets me the most is that it's not as though I have a chemical imbalance, it's all behavioral.

Where to go from that is sometimes beyond me as it seems so easy to just stop in theory but the reality of it is that there is so much there and for years I've made myself numb through physical pain. I've sai it before as it's a temporary fix to a permanent problem that isn't going away and is something I do have to face but I just don't think I can face it now.

I want so much to be free of it but at what price as when I try to tackle both addictions at once, I don't think I get very far with either one.

One day I'll have it all sorted out, just not today. Until then I can only do my best and hope it all works out in the end.

And on that note, here's my gorgeous WW ring! ♥ ♥ ♥(((T)))♥ ♥ ♥!!!