Tuesday, August 29, 2006


WW: Bananas

This past week was rough, maybe it's because my patience is wearing thin or PMS or possibly a combination of the two but it was very rough.

There was a lot of temptation to eat unhealthy, especially this past weekend but I stuck to my plan as I was really hoping to see positive results and it worked!

I lost two pounds this week, exactly two pounds! Right before I stepped on the scale I told myself to be satisfied with one down if it was at least one but seeing the scale read two down was exactly what I needed.

I've really been watching what I eat and only allowed myself one meal to let myself go - sometimes I don't exactly watch how much I'm eating, especially on weekends. I changed up my exercise routine and have added strength training to my workout - building on it slowly and am incredibly sore but it helped me out this week and kept my energy up!

Next week I have to go in for bloodwork and a checkup, something I'm not looking forward to at all. I also have to schedule an appointment to have my eyes checked. Graves Disease really fucks up the eyes and since being diagnosed I hadn't had too many problems other than them being constantly dry but two months ago I noticed that my vision is getting really bad and at times blurry which could be in cause by Graves but blurry vision is also a symptom of diabetes.

Diabetes is like my kryptonite, I can't deal with that shit. It runs on my maternal side with my Grandmother and Mom being diagnosed with it, granted they were much older than I am now. After being diagnosed with Graves all tests came back negative for diabetes then but I think it would be a good idea to be tested again just to make sure. I talked to my sister about my worries and when I told her that I really couldn't handle being diagnosed as diabetic she told me "Why not? You eat healthy and exercise!"

Which is a good point but ugh, what a shitty disease that not only wreaks havoc on your body but you have to test your blood twice a day. That's something I just don't think I could handle, I'm severely hemophobic. Seriously,deathly afraid of blood, even the word freaks me out. Honestly, I would get so sick learning about the circulatory system in school. The only reason that I've never been able to cross over into being a cutter is because of my fear of blood.

I have never been able to donate blood because my fear is so extreme. When I was a senior in high school my English teacher offered an automatic "A" on any test to anyone who donated blood. I was the only one in my class who didn't donate. Guilt consumes me constantly and I hope I am never in a position where I would need donated blood as I don't think I'll ever get over this fear.

At this point I'm thinking the worst and won't know until I'm tested. At least I'm being pro-active about it and have admitted to the fact that I need to be tested. If it comes back positive I deal with it which I honestly don't think I can, if not, I do everything to prevent it.

Seriously, this shit is bananas!

Oh honey, it's hard, I know. Those genes are killers. :-( As you know, I too have Graves Disease. I'm skinny, eat well, and exercise, so I thought I'd be immune to diabetes even though my dad and brother have it -- but I got zinged with gestational diabetes at only 8 weeks pregnant. I had to test my blood 4x/day for 32 weeks and avoid carbs. It sucked completely, but I got used to it. The lancets draw out the TINIEST bit of blood.

Hey, check out my latest post at my new blog site, triticumturgidum.blogspot.com. As you'll read, I thought of you when I posted it. :-)

You have had a rough time, I am so sorry! I can relate to the blood thing - I used to give blood until one day when I was doing it I suddenly got so sick I felt like I was going to die, and I have never been able to do it since. I don't know what changed, but I just can't look at large amounts of it anymore.

You know two pounds a week is about right - more than that and you may be eating too little! I will wager that I have more to lose than you do, and I have been, but at a very steady pace, 8 to 10 pounds a month over the last few months. Exercising really helps me, though I dread the cold weather - it's easy to get out and walk in the nice summer air! I am trying to really get into the habit and routine of it now, so I can keep it up when it's dark and rainy.
Great news on your weight loss!!
And also great news about the strenght training.

You now, the more muscle mass you have, the more chances you get to burn calories.

Diabetes is truly shitty business, but trust me, nowadays and specially if you catch it early, is easier to live with than what it was 20 years ago.

Excercising and eating healthy, as your friend told you is REALLY 50% of the job well done.

I say do not dwell on this... celebrate your weight loss eating healty fruits or toasting to fruit smoothies. (just ice, and no added water!)

Well Done and keep it up.
BTW,and totally unrelated to this: what do you think of the Hermes perfume line, specially the latest work by Ellena?
I would certainly like to hear your take on their product line, I think that given your sensibilities it could be pretty interesting.

Regards from Argentina.
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